As the holidays are upon us, it is important to look back and remember. Remember just what we have done during the course of the year and what he can reflect on. Normally, New Year’s Eve is the time to look back and shake off the old. Unfortunately, shaking off the old isn’t all that one needs to do. If you plan to make changes, it needs a plan. Also, you need to see what held you back in the previous year to avoid making the same mistakes.
On a personal note, I have made many mistakes this last year. So much so that it makes me wonder just what I am going to do next year. In some cases, I am wondering if I want to continue the podcast for another year. After hoping to receive some donations to help the shows, we haven’t received a dime for some of the things we need to move forward.
At the same token, I know of some of the mistakes I made within the last year. Allowing myself to be focused on other things that kept me from moving forward. Waiting until the end of the year to make changes and various other things.
So, you could say that I am in a precarious situation. On a poor man’s note, I have lost my internet. So, I am forced to use the library internet to make these posts. Also, I am about to have my water and power shut off until we can pay the bill. All of this occurs around the holidays, so you go into the holidays with this impending doom and can’t shake it.
I know some may consider this an exaggeration, but it isn’t. We received the red notice from the Department of Water and Power and it will occur roughly a day or two after Christmas. We, also, have no food for our pets and spending what very little we have left to get them something to eat. Fortunately, we have a roof over our heads, for now.
It is very hard to shake off the depression and anger that one has. However, it is important to look at the other things. It makes you look at things and prioritize bills and figure which to pay first. Food, as well as water and power, are the high points on the list. There are a few reasons how this situation happened, but it wasn’t my personal fault. But that is another story for another time.
You are probably wondering why am I saying this all on Christmas Day? Well, it is to put things into perspective. Maybe you are heading home to your dysfunctional family. Or, you are not having the best Christmas you would normally have. If you have food in your fridge, power, water, and essential things – you are doing better than some.
If I can manage to get myself out of this slump, which I will, I won’t make these mistakes again. At the same time, knowing that we have listeners out there but no one to support us – it makes me look at whether we should continue this venture we started eight years ago. I will continue to post blogs, using the library for internet access, but as far as anything else – that may take some time.
If this blog can do anything, it is to put things into perspective. Yeah, we all get caught up in our own drama. Things we didn’t get can seem like they are life changing events. During this time of the year, it is important to look at what you do have. Not as far as material things. Gifts you received from friends. But, the people in your life and the essentials you need.
As for now, I want to wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. May you have what you need to live but remember you are more fortunate than many others.