Some of you are probably wondering what is happening. Or, maybe none of you care. But I care. There was no Lazy Geeks episode this week. Why? Well, it was a rough week. It started off in a poor mental health situation, and it went downhill from there. Since the weekend, things are seemingly on an upward trajectory, but I don’t want to jinx it. I made a promise when I restarted this, I wanted to be more transparent. Keep you guys more in the loop than I have before.
This time of year is always difficult for me.
Sunday was the anniversary of my mother’s passing. She passed in 1992 and I was a month shy of my 20th birthday. This goes through till mid-summer as it is the anniversary of my father’s passing in June, a month after my 23rd birthday.
Then during my birthday month is the fourth anniversary of my brother’s passing, which is two days before his birthday. To add on, this year will have the first “birthday” day without River, who passed back in January. I try to get past it, and some of you are probably like, “geez, it’s been thirty years. Get over it.” To them, I say “fuck off”.
Plus it was hot here and that usually takes me down a notch. There was wind during that time, and since it’s spring – my allergies was giving me a lot of shit. Which is what I believe led to the loss of my voice.
Then at the end of the week, Spotify notified me that I had over 230 notifications of third-party content on more than half of The Lazy Geeks. The bulk of the episodes flagged were from a decade or older.
I use royalty free music for my shows, and had to dispute all of them. Spotify gave me eight days to do it. That is where most of my weekend was spent. What is happening?
By the time I got to Sunday, my mind was beat. I spent it sleeping and watching mindless content on TV. So, that is what was going on. This is what took me out mentally and physically to prevent from doing an episode this week.
My voice is coming back and I am pushing myself forward. A few good things happened this weekend and helped improve my mood. I will be dropping more content on the blog, as well as working on next week’s episode. Thanks for your understanding and I will try to make these instances happen less as we go along.